Wednesday February 10 Diary (The Things I Do For Love)

Sometime after singing with Shilo, I woke up and watched the 2 episodes of Colbert on the DVR and then deleted them. I fell back asleep around 7AM,  and Shilo got up at 12:30, and shortly thereafter my phone rang and it was "E." Once again, she wanted beer. I was ready to pee my pants when she called, so I dragged the phone into the bathroom with me while telling her that I just dropped off a 12 pack yesterday. It had actually been a little while since I had seen Shilo naked, so I gently stroked his butt while I was talking to her and peeing.  I reassured her that I would be coming over after I took care of getting Shilo to PT. 

I brushed my teeth, applied a little bit of Poligrip on my retainer, put my retainer on, had some tea, and some Cheerios with freeze-dried strawberries for breakfast. Unfortunately, the Poligrip did not do any good, and I had cereal and freeze dried strawberries all stuck underneath the retainer. I pulled the retainer off to clean it, and discovered just how disgusting Poligrip really is, and I vowed to never use it again. I mean that shit was stuck all up in my mouth and on my gums and it just felt so gross I wanted to puke.

No time to puke of course, because I had to get dressed and take Shilo to PT. Once I dropped Shilo to PT, I went back home and got dressed properly so I could take care of other business. Going downstairs, I bumped into my downstairs neighbor "M" and we started talking about her dog and her kids, and I kind of lost track of time, and then realized I really had to get back to Shilo so I could take him to the bank and bring him home. When I got to him, he was very tired looking, and he said that he was a bit worked up and sore. I told him to give me the check and his card and I would deposit the check in the ATM for him. I didn't want to use the drive through because it's faster to walk up to the ATM in front of the bank. I dropped him off at the house, called E, and told her I was on my way. When I got to her place, I did look for the beer I gave her the day before,  but I could not find it. I'm still not sure what she did with a 12-pack of beer so quickly.

She kept apologizing and I kept telling her it was not a big deal. It's not my job to judge her, and it's not like she's got the memory either. I also asked her for her cellphone, because she had been bugging me about cleaning it out. I told her I'd be back in a few hours with her phone and the laundry she had asked me to do. I went home, cleaned out her phone, and wrote the following note to her to tape to her refrigerator:

Dear "E,"

I do the grocery shopping, beer runs, ice cream pickup, whatever you want whenever you want, and I work hard to keep within the grocery allowance. 

Paying your bills, getting your groceries, and picking up your prescriptions is NOT a burden for me. I consider it an act of service. I am not benefiting from this, and there’s nothing in it for me. Just the peace of mind that comes from knowing your needs are being met, and you have what you want.

Also, because I pay the bills, you NEVER have to worry about anything getting shut off.  However, I do have a list of jobs for you that will make my life easier. 

Here they are:

YOUR JOBS

Take time to relax and breathe.

Call me when you notice you are low on medication.

Call me when you are low on food, beer or supplies.

Call me whenever you are feeling stressed.

Put your mail in the box for me to check

I also made a box for her mail to go into, because every time she gets a bill she worries about it, and I'm the one that's supposed to be taking care of all that. For the record, I am taking very good care of it, it's just that she frequently forgets where she puts the mail.  I went back to her apartment right about 6, and dropped off her laundry, her phone and the box, and I gave her instructions on what I wanted her to do with the box. I also taped the note to her refrigerator, and reassured her that I am not upset with her at all.  I checked her mail for her, and then brought her keys back upstairs. There was no mail in the mailbox.

I made pork chops for dinner with wild rice, and again sat on the couch and cuddled with Shilo to watch TV with him and Stitch. I took my meds while watching the news. After watching the news, I watched Colbert, and then I watched two episodes of "For Life" that were on the DVR. I did WAY too much crying watching them. My blood sugar was 164 at 2:02AM

 After that, I wrote my diary entry for yesterday and posted it, and also did the draft for this. I finally headed to bed about 3:30AM